back to school >_

Posted by khar at 12:00 PM on April 8, 2007.

am i ready to go back to school?

i have a lot of worries for this summer...

1. new blockmates...gotta adjust! AGAIN!
2. so-so schedule...ends at 8:30 pm! grr!
3. awkward atmosphere...*sigh*
4. who's gonna be our instructor?
5. injection! huhu! im scared...
6. can i pull through this?
7. im tired..
8. im discouraged...

waaaaaahh!!! here i am again...being pessimistic! tsk tsk!

cant help feeling that way...almost everything are not just the way they are...but as they say "change  is the only permanent thing in this world"...grrr!

i am so helpless!

would not going to school help?

i dont think so! aarrgh!

but the idea of going back to school while the rest of the world are relaxing is so discouraging...

help!

Currently feeling: pessimistic

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nursing blues..

Posted by khar at 01:31 PM on March 31, 2007.

nursing is not a cinch....

i am fully aware of that at the very beginning...

but the reality of that statement just dawned on me recently..

doing our hospital duties--though were only to do the simple stuffs--gave me a view on what to expect on our 3rd year...

whew! can i really do this? am i capable?

look at this...me, karen, clumsy, forgetful, indecisive, unorganized..can i really pull this? am i going to become a nurse? can i do it?

tsk tsk! doubt and dread fills me as of the moment..

i cant imagine myself the way i used to imagine myself before...the picture where i'll be wearing my impeccably white uniform, with my patients..can i really be that person? a nurse?

*sigh* i know i ought to be optimistic..but looking on the bright side makes me feel like cheating..avoiding the reality..waaah!

am i being way to hard on myself?

i dont think so...i just think its about time i face the truth and try to evaluate myself...

i guess i should do that... >_<

Currently listening to: ****
Currently feeling: pessimistic

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a happy weekend

Posted by khar at 01:15 PM on February 12, 2007.

last saturday was another busy day...

we had our second basketball practice...we werent able to practice in the school gym coz it wasnt our schedule to use the gym..so we had to find another venue for our practice and we decided to do it in glynda's house because they have a basketball court nearby...

after the practice, glyn's aunt asked us to stay for lunch..she bought lechon baboy, utan and puso for us...boy! we had a feast...hahah! we stayed for a while watching tv because it would be rude if we left right after we had our fill..but we had fun talking and watching wowowee that we lost track of time..i was able to leave at around 2:00...

i hurriedly went home to pack my things for my trip to dalaguete...pista sa san guillermo...i wanted to join the feast because i wasnt able to do so for the past years...

we got caught in the traffic because their was a car accident..i felt bad at the old women whose leg got crushed by the tricycle they hit...they weren't able to move her because she was trapped...and she was already pale and grimacing in pain..tsk tsk! that was the first road accident i've really seen..

i arrived at dalaguet at around 5:00..there i met my cousin ren-ren! i havent seen her for years..and boy! i didn't even recognized her...we immediately clicked the moment we started talking to each other..

we went to the "peryahan" and there we spent our meager 20 pesos gambling...we wanted to ride the ferris wheel at first...but we got terrified seeing it speeding round and round that we decided against it...

we went home deflated not of energy but of cash...hehe!

then ren-ren got a call from her friend..asking if pwede ba sila sugaton...they were somewhere within the vicinity and they dont know where else to go...together, we met them...they treated us with ice cream..yum!

then we persuaded them to go to the peryahan...there they spent a lot of money...tsk tsk!

after they also deflated their cash, we went back to the multicab..ren-ren suggested we have "inom"...we bought three san mig...

i got dizzy after a couple of rounds...im not used to drinking a lot...i was already seeing double..hahaha! now i know how it feels getting drunk, though i wasnt that drunk..

we went home at around 1:00...trying our best to keep our footing and pretend that we didn't have a drink...i fell asleep immediately once i hit the bed...zZz!!

it was a fun experience for me...plus i got to bond with my cuzn...whew! i wish they'll be more happy times with her...:D

i'm guessing now on how many pounds i gained over the weekend...i keep on stuffing my stomach with various foods served on the table..it was like i was starved for a week..hahah! that's how it really is when there are fiestas...you really cant avoid overeating! lol...

all in all..it was another happy weekend..a reunion of distant relatives and meeting new friends..:D

Currently watching: spring waltz
Currently feeling: happy

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*i dont know what's the title*

Posted by khar at 12:35 PM on October 17, 2006.

yeah! it's been quite some time since i've written something here..it's not that i don't have time, it's just that i have absolutely no idea what to write..and the same goes to this entry..i'm just writing uhmm for the sake of writing! haha! such a lame excuse..

ok..i'll just write whatever pops in my head..

classes will start next week..and i haven't enjoyed our sembreak..how do you expect me to enjoy it when all along we keep on going to school (in our SCHOOL UNIFORM!) getting our grades, getting our clearance signed and enrolment, which by the way is tomorrow! whew!

the only thing i find enjoying this sembreak is that i was able to do things i wasn't able to do during our first semester in school..and that would be malling, going to the movies, pig out with my friends and window shop...haha! my life's been so boring ever since this school year started..not to mention that my classmates aren't into the things i enjoy doing with my friends..

what would our 2nd sem be like? would it be hell? haha! harsh thing to say..but it's not impossible..i believe that things would get harder now! that would mean sleepless nights, dozens projects and assignments, reasearch works..arggh! can i stand all of that again?

here i am again! complaining! grumbling! actually, that's what i've been doing these past few weeks..i think i badly need a break! but will i have one? i just hope we'll get to enjoy our christmas vacation..then that would be something to look forward to..hehe! but what if we would be given lots and lots of projects to work on for the holidays?! oh no! that'll surely ruin my christmas spirit! boo hooo!

hmm..*speechless* i think that's just about it! got nothing more to say...haha! that's it for now..more of my rubbish thoughts next time! lol

Currently watching: too beautiful to lie..
Currently feeling: sore

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danielle steel's heroine...

Posted by khar at 12:42 AM on August 19, 2006.

im currently reading another book of danielle steel which was recommended to me by a friend...i was lucky enough to find out it was available in our library so the moment i found it i immediately borrowed it...reading the first three chapters of the book was good mainly because zoya's life (the name of the main character which is also the title of the book) was still full of luxury, extravagance, happiness, love and her family and her cousins who happens to be the tsar of russia are complete and happy together...

but as i read deeper into the next chapters i realized life can really change in one day...much more in one week...in zoya's life, russia was faced with a great crisis and they, as members and related to the romanov are in danger...revolution started and even the loyal soldiers and guards of the emperor left them and betrayed them...zoya's brother Nicolai got killed by one of their men and the instant her father left their palace to find out what really happened to his son, her father got killed also...then Countess Natalya(her mother), who was so overprotected by Count Konstantin(Zoya's father) and the security of the palace, went mad after seeing her son die...the only persons left in Fontanka palace are Zoya, the dowager countess Evginia, Natalya and Feodor...planning their escape out of the palace because they sensed that anytime the revolutionaries will loot the palace, they quickly sew some of the jewels they can salvage into the hems of their dresses...but as they were about to ride the old troika, Zoya's mother went hysterical because she doesnt want to leave Nicolai's body and dashed back to the palace that is slowly engulfed in flames...Natalya jumped into the flames which ended her life immediately...

Zoya, who is only 18, only have her grandmother who is already 80 years old...but her grandmother did everything to save them both..they sailed to Paris after saying goodbye to the tsar and his family...

in paris, they suffered poverty and grief...princes from russia came to paris to escape the revolution and became cab drivers or teachers...in paris, their noble titles didnt even matter to the people...everyone was suffering from the great depression...and food was becoming scarce as the war progressed...

with the poverty zoya suffered, she struggled to earn a living by dancing in the ballet russe...from all the luxury she have before all she have now is the tiny apartment they rented with what penny they can earn from dancing and exchanging some of their precious jewels...she learned to value the things she have...even the stalest bread they have make her happy enough just for her and her grandmother to survive...

i think i've said so much about zoya...i really love the story...it made me want to learn more about what really happened to the tsar in russia...though the book was fiction, i know that some of the information of the romanov being shot in an open fire and whose bodies were poured with acid and thrown into the flames, were kinda true...i read some stories in a magazine about the brutal murder of the tsar and the tsarina...there were even claims that anastasia, the daughter of Nicholas and Alaxandra (the tsar and the tsarina) is still alive...this led to the making of the full-length animated movie "Anastasia"...

i know the murder of the tsar and his family was brutal...but that was russia...and there was the revolution and the war to consider...the book made me realize a very important lesson...life is short and life and the small things that comes with it should be treasured and made significant....for they may come a time when even the smallest thing and the ugliest thing will be the only thing that can help you survive...

Currently reading: zoya
Currently feeling: inspired?!

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addicted to korean...

Posted by khar at 05:42 AM on August 6, 2006.

these past few months i've been doing nothing but watch korean dramas...and i love it! haha! though i dont understand korean, the subtitles really helps a lot..

sometimes i wondered if it would be nice to learn korean so it woould be much easier to understand their conversations...haha! talk about being addicted...

but sad to say, it wont be that easy! i dont have time for those things...i barely have enough time to sleep, how am i supposed to squeeze that in my already unorganized schedule?! lol...i guess i'll just content myself with the subtitles...haha!

anyways here are the list of the korean dramas and movies i've already watched..

he was cool - ji eun sung (song seung hun) and han ye won (jun da bin)

full house- han ji eun (song hye gyo) and lee eun jae (bi)

only you- cha eun jae (han chae yung)  joo hyun jae (han yi joon)

snow white sweet love- ma young hee (kim jung hwa) and han sun woo (lee wan) 

my name is kim sam soon- kim sam soon (kim sun ah) and hyun jin hun (hyun bin)

tree of heaven- hana (park shin hye) and jun soo (lee wan)

stained glass- kim ha neul and lee dong gun

princess lulu-  Kim Jeong Eun and Jeong Jun Ho

the classic-  sun ye jin and cho in sung

my little bride-  moon geun young (boeun) and kim rae won (sangmin)

lovely rivals- lee ji hoon and yeom jung ah

love story in harvard- lee so in (kim tae hee) and  kim rae won

wonderful life- jun se jin (eugene), han seung wan (kim jae won) and han shin bi (jeon da bin)

my girl- ju yoo rin (lee da hae), gong chan (lee dong wook) and jeong woo (lee jun ki)

king and the clown- lee jun ki

goong- shin chaegyung and shin goon (ju ji hoon)

which star are you from?-  hye rim/bok sil (jung ryeo won) and choi sung hui (kim rae won)

my boyfriend is type b- hami (han ji hye) and young bin (lee dong gun)

my girl and i- (song hye gyo) and (cha tae hyun)

my sassy girl- kyung jin(jeon ji hyun) and kyun woo (cha tae hyun)

windstruck- kyung jin(jeon ji hyun) and myung woo (jang hyuck)

millionaire's first love- kang jae kyung(hyun bin) and eun whan(lee yeon hee)

my tutor friend- su wan (kim ha neul) and ji hoon(kwon sang woo)

dbsk banjun dramas-micky, uknow, hero, max and xiah

1% of anything- kim da hyung(kim jung hwa) and (kang dong won)

save the last dance - ji eun soo (eugene) and baek chang-ho/kang hyun woo (ji sung)

green rose - angela (lee da hae) and jerome lee

ditto- kim ha neul and yoo ji tae

...ing- kim rae won and im soo jung

make it big - song seung hun and kwon sang woo

il mare - lee jung jae and jeon ji hyun

please teach me english - lee na young and jang hyuk

daisy - jeon ji hyun and jung woo sung 

words i want to say(banjun)- bi and han ji hye

too beautiful to lie - kim ha neul and kang dong won

friends - won bin and fokada kyoko

vacation- dbsk

fogstreet - kim jung hoon

taiwanese drama:

it started with a kiss - xiang qin (ariel lin) and zhi shu (joe cheng)

devil beside you - qi yue (rainie yang) and ahmon (mike he)

tokyo juliet - sui (ariel lin) and feng liang (wu zun)

Currently watching: which star are you from?
Currently feeling: kapoi...zZzZ!

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